yucky weekend

I don't want this weekend to come, firstly the weather at the moment is absolutely disgusting its windy and pouring with rain which means the kids will be housebound if it continues... my other reason is a bit more selfish

Ben is going to Wellington to do a communication course at Landmark, its great that he wants to do this, but I am feeling huge, have a chest infection and just plain don't want to be home alone with the three kids for the weekend.

So I am being a grump about it all... I want him to do these sorts of things, I just aren't feeling very good about it at the moment, I am sure that I will be fine with the kids, just got to keep to routine and have them in bed at a good time.

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so its Saturday....

I got to stay in bed till 9am, pretty good for around here, the kids and Ben have gone to the market to get fruit and veges which is nice for them... I have surfed a little, kept the fire going and decided I will have a shower just dont want to have one in a freezing bathroom.... My mood is okish...

On other news the house we live in has sold, yay, so no more real estate agents coming through etc, it only took a week which is great for Mum and Dad, and for us, means we can get on to packing this weekend.

I have decided against doing the Landmark forum this month, I am not ready to do it, and am a bit too unstable to even try being away from my family for a weekend. Instead I will do it in August with Rebecca, which had been our original idea to do it together.

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An amazing gift

some of you who read this will know that my relationship with my in laws has been difficult and very painful. Some of it is my fault some of it is theirs. It has been a very uneasy relationship for the 12 years that Benjamin and I have been together.

Yesterday my Father in law rung me, hes been doing Landmark education and is doing a communication course this weekend. He rung to apologise for how he has treated me and to say he loves me. I am totally blown away by this. We had come to expect uneasiness with bens parents so for this to happen is a huge step for Benjamin, Clemens and I.

I am still in shock and trying to process it all, its a new beginning for us as a family and hopefully will lead to a closer relationship for us all.

We still have difficulties with Bens mum and I don't see this changing anytime in the future. But for now i am celebrating a new possibility of having a closer relationship with my Father in law and for our children to get to know their Grosspapa a lot better.

Christmas does still bring miracles, be they big or small and our family has recieved a lovely one this year.